How We Spend Our Days: Sawnie Morris

Annie Dillard wrote, “How we spend our days is, of course, how we spend our lives.” On the first of each month, Catching Days hosts a guest writer in the series, “How We Spend Our Days.” Today, please welcome writer SAWNIE MORRIS.


I wake to a voice saying, Winter came & left her feathers everywhere.

A light dusting of snow has fallen, the first snow of the season, and with it a beneficence has left me this one line poem. I rise, do the necessary morning ablutions, return to the bed, and write in fits and starts. The line feels like it has its own destiny and I don’t know what that is.

The next day and the next, I force myself to get up and go directly to my studio, to the desk. I’ve been away for months now and the only way back is to ruthlessly dedicate myself. The effort is awkward, but I am starting to catch the faint scent of liberation, which is to say, I will disappear and only the writing will be left.

My husband has been experiencing his own struggle. He’s stuck in a painting. He doesn’t have to tell me, I see it in his face. And I can tell he’d like me to take a look, though he won’t ask.


A second snowstorm arrives, settles, departs. The day is sparkling, sky-filled. My husband has gone on a morning ski in the nearby mountains. I go to my studio, select a small box of oil crayons, and in my bare feet cross the cold outdoor flagstone of the courtyard to his studio. On the wall hangs the problematic painting, its chalky ripple of brush strokes, the pale cobalt blue and slashes of black. I consider the oil crayons. On the long table where he lays out his materials, I see the carousel of variously tinted inks. I love magenta. I want to eat it. I pick up the bottle, unscrew the top. I look back at the painting. An area in the top right, cloudy with swaths of titanium, suggests itself. I climb the wood platform my husband has constructed beneath the painting to extend his reach. I lift the nub of magenta ink. Then, thinking the better of it, lower myself from the platform, put the ink away, and go shuffling my fingers in a blonde box the size of my palm, full of graphite. Slender graphite, like friendly dark snakes momentarily stiffened for this use. I climb back on the platform and write in large loose free letters, WINTER CAME AND LEFT HER FEATHERS EVERYWHERE.

I let the words sift down through the air of the canvas.

I go to my desk and, for several hours, write.


When I finish, my husband is in the kitchen making a fried egg sandwich with tomato and avocado. I say, “So, what do you think?” He answers in a way that is emotionally elsewhere, neither grateful nor resentful. “It made the painting better,” he says. I look at him. My question has pivoted his outer gaze from the sandwich to the inner world of the painting. For several seconds, his mind is in the painting’s landscape and he is alone in the snowfall of its forest, at the same time that he is fully awake and betting on his instincts to find the way out.

He turns back to the sandwich. I go on my walk.

It is a two-mile walk along a dirt road that ribbons the mesa. I am the small movement of a down vest the color of a river in winter beneath the magnificence of the mountain. I tuck my gloved hands in my pockets, move my legs along in their boots, breathe the cold air of early December. Half way through the walk I stop. My body makes this decision without consulting my mind. I am thinking about the recent election. I find myself looking hard at the mountain, as though for an answer. No answer, but it comes to me that the mountain, this sacred mountain, will outlast human ignorance, no matter what.

I think about the one line poem. I think about the movement of feathers that often appears in my husband’s paintings. I think about the birds that frequent our courtyard, how my husband keeps the feeders full and the birdbath shimmering with clean water, even in winter. I think about the snow that fell in the night, twice.




1. What is the best book you’ve read in the last few months and how did you choose it?

  • Shortly after the election, I reread Claudia Rankine’s Citizen: An American Lyric. Reading Rankine is entering an unflinching commitment to truth, as such it grounds and gives courage.

2. Would you give us one little piece of writing advice?

  • Write. Trust your instincts and get to know your own rhythms. Read the greats of all eras and gain a feel for your natural place in the lineages. Find someone with whom to share your work, someone who has a fundamental appreciation for your writing and whose opinion you respect. 

3. What is your strangest reading or writing habit?

  • I write by hand first, which is probably not unusual for a poet. Maybe five years ago, I began to notice an urge, every spring, to write using color ink. By summer, I was content with black or blue again, but late March found me writing in green, pink, purple, red, turquoise, etc. Then, following a cataclysmic event in my life, I began feeling a need to write in color inks across the seasons. Every day, a different color, never the same color twice in a row.


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15 thoughts on “How We Spend Our Days: Sawnie Morris

  1. I relate so much to this: “I’ve been away for months now and the only way back is to ruthlessly dedicate myself. The effort is awkward, but I am starting to catch the faint scent of liberation, which is to say, I will disappear and only the writing will be left.” It is always that way for me, the ruthlessness, the awkwardness, the freedom of finding myself fully inside the work. Absolutely perfectly expressed, and because of that, deeply satisfying and inspiring–thank you. I also relate very much to the wish to eat magenta ink. I want to eat anything pink or purple, particularly deeply saturated fabrics–they all look almost irresistibly delicious. At least I can stroke them. With ink… it must be spilled. All best wishes for a 2017 that looks just as lovely as this piece you’ve left here for the rest of us.

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  2. Beautiful, as ever. Your last answer might explain why I tend to see your words in color, even when they are black and white. Thank you for this lovely writing. Also, thank you, Cynthia, for this venue.

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  3. Thank you so much for your comments, Claire. I’m glad the piece spoke to you and am delighted to find myself in good company in regard to magenta! My best wishes to you for a joyful 2017, bountiful with visits from the muse ~ Sawnie

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  4. Thank you for responding, BK. I’m happy to know my synesthesia (if it can be called that) speaks and to such a strong dreamer. Wishing you all happiness, as well as courage, in the new year. ~ Sawnie


  5. Thank you, Sawnie, and for you too 🙂 What I come away with is not just the beauty of your writing, but amazement in what a wonderful relationship you and your husband must have that you can mark his paintings! lol I’m an artist and I was actually cringing during that whole scene with you considering the magenta ink, then the graphite…


  6. When I was little, my parents used to take us on rides at night. I loved peeking in through the windows to see people living lives. This series reminds me of the curiosity of all of that!

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  7. I recall your synesthesia (if that’s what you’d call it), with numbers when you were a child. They had personalities, if I recall correctly. Vivid.

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  8. Oops, that reply should have gone to the person commenting above your comments. So sorry!. Congratulations on your residency. Such a gift to have that time to be in the quiet. Best wishes to you, Elizabeth!


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