after: 93/365

IMG_0468After is usually when I think of it–whatever it is. Not just what I wish I’d said, but what I wish I’d done or eaten or chosen or written or mentioned. You name it. It’s not willful and it’s not through a lack of consideration or deliberation. It’s like a thought pattern.

I get it with writing. Only after I hit send can I imagine how the other person will view the essay or story. But for the rest of it, it’s like there’s a little door in my brain that only opens after.


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15 thoughts on “after: 93/365

  1. Oh, how I empathize with this one. It’s the writing version of walking out of Target $150 poorer but without the one thing you needed to buy in the first place. I love hearing this–glad to hear we’re not alone.


  2. Cynthia… if I read you right…
    I too experience this thought pattern…
    and often pause before hitting that send button…
    thou invariably a second thought surfaces…
    the very moment the message is released.
    I believe it to be a natural ordering of thoughts…
    and thus consider myself challenged as to what
    to do with the second thought…
    once it has surfaced.
    Does that make any sense to you?


      • I think what often happens (if not to all of us, but many, and certainly me–and probably you), is that when we’re in the moment, regardless of what that is, most things we will only give so much time to figure out or perhaps there’s an outside force (and life interference) that only allows us so much time. Time constraints generally add some measure of pressure. So many things need to simmer (that’s why, years ago, I put up a site called “Simmer Artist,” now gone), just like a pot of stew–or a manuscript. But once that decision or whatever is made, the pressure, however minute or overwhelming, is released, allowing that “door” to open. 😀


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