The Russian Doll Aspect of Life:
I am the same person who liked to play with Troll Dolls in third grade, tried out for cheer leading in ninth, worked as a waitress in college, lived in France, and practiced law. All of these “me’s” are difficult for the “me now’ to believe–some more so than others.
“Somewhere inside me there’ll always be the person I am to-night.”
Life is hard to get hold of. We have to break it down to make it manageable. We have to try to catch moments. Yet, there is the big picture. “How we spend our days is, of course, how we spend our lives.”
“Dick tried to dissect it into pieces small enough to store away–realizing that the totality of a life my be different in quality from its segments.”
Sometimes it seems as if the clock is not moving at all, and other times, how can it be Monday again already. Is it a function of what we are doing or what we are looking forward to? I’m a person who always needs to see the days on a calendar, who is always printing out different calendars–one week, two weeks, a month, six weeks–trying to keep track of life. What does it say about a character, his or her view of time?
“He stayed in the big room a long time listening to the buzz of the electric clock, listening to time.”
“For him time stood still and then every few years accelerated in a rush, like the quick re-wind of a film, but for Nicole the years slipped away by clock and calendar and birthday…”